Against being good

Sometimes it feels bad to be good.

To have this pie in the sky when you die

But not get any now.

To say to self, "self, what a good person I am."

When no one else cares.

Or dares.

Hard to be square.

Why is good being hard?

Shouldn't it be natural

To do the right thing?

Easy-breezy-beautiful-good-person.

I can't say I aspire

To being good

Because it requires

Much too much of itself.

Rather I try

As I've said before

To be aware

Of what "good" IS --

to You.

[ENTER corny rhyming, annoying but good lines]

So my pie in the sky

Will be in my eye

Or better yet I'll bake it

Because being good

Is one of those things

Where you can never never make it...

You just keep trying.

- January 31, 2002

Meanderings